Saturday, April 17, 2010

Where Is She Now?

So, I realize that I have not submitted a blog post in over two months.  You see, I've been going through some growing pains with the sport and have decided to spend the rest of the season off of skates.  This was a pretty hard decision to make (I think I cried for the entire week before and the entire week after changing my status), but I needed to regain my perspective and perhaps my sanity.

About two weeks before our scheduled scrimmage assessment I decided to stop skating.  I felt like I was so close to the finish line and it still feels like I gave up too early, but I was (am) still unable to do that turn stop and my entire eligibility to assess and to someday tryout for a team seemed to hinge upon that one skill.  I know that I had two weeks to practice, practice, practice, but I had just lost my drive and my enthusiasm.  I felt angry and frustrated and I would dread going to practice; my attendance significantly dropped off and I didn't even want to go watch practice.  I used to cry a lot after practice, but when I started to cry consistently before and during practice, I thought I probably needed a chance to regroup.

I didn't quit the league entirely.  I had considered doing so, but I think that I do have some value in an off-skates capacity.  I am on two league committees and I'd like to think that I am pretty good at what is asked of me there.  So I'm just taking some time off and focusing my energies elsewhere..maybe I'll do more sewing, because I am definitely good at that and could use an ego boost.  I'm going to give my knees a rest (they've been hurting a lot walking down inclines) and when I feel a little better, maybe I'll consider getting back on the wheels.

In the meantime, I'd like to congratulate all of the gals who did their scrimmage assessment on Wednesday.  I'm very proud of you all and it was a pleasure skating with you.  Your FM cohort was made up of a really sweet bunch of girls and I wish you luck with your derby future.  For those that didn't take the assessments, that's okay too...You'll do it when you're ready and you'll be great!  

And a BIG congratulations to Dewey Decibel!  Yay!!!  I'm very proud of you for all of your hard work and thank you so much for your encouragement and support.

Thank you for reading!


Brian said...

You could still outskate me six ways from Sunday and then serve me a delicious dinner afterwards.

Anonymous said...

Love you, Scarlett. And I know exactly how you feel - I'm going through it too at this point. I admire your skills and appreciate all of the help that you've given me over the past months. But, skating is supposed to be fun, not stressful so I respect you decision even though I really hope you'll be back skating soon. Let's see if we can get recreational team together or something!

Anonymous said...

I'm so sad about this! Although I totally understand, I'm so obsessed with derby right now I'm afraid I'll burn out before I ever make it try-outs!

I found your blog today and just wanted to let you know I've loved following your journey. I'm hoping to make it to fresh meat intake in 6 weeks, but don't think I can get the money together in time. :(

You've given me a GREAT idea of what to expect though and how to train until then, managing to be factual, honest and personal all without being boring (not that I think anything derby related could be).

Good luck in wherever you go next and thank you so much for sharing this!

FM Daisy said...

I'll be thinking of you tonight, wishing you were out there with me! Thanks again for being so badass that you suggest we do this!